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Tiffany Weston's avatar

I really felt this and understand so much about the struggles of mental illness, anxiety mostly. Each day can be such a battle of survival and grasping onto whatever reality you can. Thank you for dedicating this to all still searching for the light. ❤️

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I dealt with that remorseless beast for over ten years, Tiffany.

I had to change the way I lived in every way, and don’t get me started on the SSRI’s and anti-anxiety meds. Why are anxiety sufferers given decades-old medications?!

Valium was created in the 70s?! Prozac and Effexor were created in the 80s and 90s respectively!? Where are the breakthrough medications?!

It’s a tough slog out there.

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Tiffany Weston's avatar

Lithium, Depakote...so we can just become zombies and not feel a thing. No thanks.

Itreally is all about learning what works and adjusting so much of your life so you can live it to the fullest. I'm finally learning what works for me at 44, and it comes with many challenges along the way. Yeah, I could go on n on. Thank you for this! ❤️

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I had to jog and gym just to feel normal and if I didn’t? I’d have to rely on anti-anxiety meds etc.

And you can’t lift weights seven days a week, the body has limits (or mine does, lol) so it was extremely frustrating.

They never made me “zombified”, I just couldn’t leave the house without a couple of pills in my pocket in case of a panic attack etc.

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Tiffany Weston's avatar

I get it. The job situation is always my biggest battle. Being around too many people, finding something with the perfect atmosphere or where I'm on my own. Its nice to know we're not alone when sometimes you feel like no one understands.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Yep, I could only handle night shifts in nursing. The quiet was my solace.

But I actually loved doing them, elderly ppl need more care during the longest shift.

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Marie Charon's avatar

I needed a dictionary to read this poem. I dig it.

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

😂😂 You aren’t the first, don’t worry.

Dictionaries and thesauruses on hand. 🥹

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Marie Charon's avatar

I am not afraid of them! I use a thesaurus a lot! Thank you!

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Marie Charon's avatar

The rhyming ones online are heaven sent! I’m not a huge rhyming sorta poet but sometimes I love making one to “stretch.!”

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I’m the same, generally not interested in rhyming but sometimes it’s magic!

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I’d be lost without mine, sometimes the perfect word just doesn’t flow. Synonyms are a lifeline 😆🌪

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E.R. Davis's avatar

I love the audio as always but I have to say the ending of this...the last line, there was just the slightest note of hope in it. The last line almost felt like a new poem.

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I remember writing it at 3am, it was a white flag night of conceding defeat to that fucker called Anxiety.

I guess I never truly lost hope then, if you saw it 🙏🦋🖤

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

🂱

Not sure if the emoji is being displayed properly, but it's the Ace of Hearts.

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

I accept this Ace of Hearts from the Queen of Diamonds 👸🏻👸🏻👸🏻👸🏻👸🏻💎

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H. R. Sinclair's avatar

I'm glad you beat this battle, Ser Edward. O' how the world would be such a lesser place without your presence. A beautiful dedication, my friend.

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

Ser Harry! Ye gadz.

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