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Janaka Stagnaro's avatar

Indeed a painful and sad picture you painted, Edward. It’s a beautiful service you are performing, however

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

Thank you, daddy croc 🐊🐊.

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Rob Riley's avatar

ridiculous..

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Edward Swafford's avatar

What’s ridiculous about it?

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Rob Riley's avatar

write like you speak, or at least closer to how you speak

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Edward Swafford's avatar

But then I’d be as basic as you? 🤷🏻‍♂️

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Rob Riley's avatar

with any luck, maybe..

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Rob Riley's avatar

venin, vitiation, mimetics?

c'mon..

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Nancy Santos's avatar

Equally painful and powerful, Edward.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

This happened five days ago, still processing the visceral and heartbreaking event 💔

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Nancy Santos's avatar

Oh wow. That’s fresh. 💔

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uhadmatter's avatar

Spoken from the highest wavelength 📡

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Y’all too good to me, JJ 🌪🖤

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Debdutta Pal's avatar

The "Fuck, I even pray" broke me. This is brilliant, in every sense of the word.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

It was a surreal experience, it happened on Friday so I’m still processing it.

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Marcia Abboud's avatar

Oh. God. I feel sick, Edward. Heartbreaking. Devastating. I felt every word as if I was watching, too. A brave and brilliant read, my friend. 💔

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Surprisingly I was able to watch the entire thing without feeling squeamish, I don’t know how.

It was shocking yet I just froze?

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Joseph R Mason  BCS DiMAP DiPC's avatar

Wow! Difficult read is an understatement! However, there is a haunting beauty in your words. Your spoken voice like a a cup of warming hot chocolate. Loved it H.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Thank you! What a lovely compliment, Joseph 🖤🌪🥹

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H. R. Sinclair's avatar

I can feel the pain in this. Deeply. I can feel the boys silent pain you so clearly heard, and the pain you clearly felt hearing it. This is brave and beautiful, my friend.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

And the pain of sight, witnessing an addict use a syringe to shoot ice into his veins in broad daylight was confronting.

But this is reality.

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Maisie Archer's avatar

"AWAKE is the word, it’s the reality, it’s your rule."

I have family members in the midst of meth addiction and this is it, right here. This is what they need, for reasons they might not even know themselves. Fear of something, sometimes themselves. Fear of what will catch them if they nod off, emotionally, physically, mentally, for even a second.

You're doing incredible work - I'm sure you've helped more people than you can possibly imagine.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

I really haven’t, My success rate of weaning ppl off methamphetamine is 0%. I have tried to refer so many to in-patient care in hospital etc. but the drug is too powerful, too addictive.

It’s ripping the threads apart.

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Maisie Archer's avatar

That’s so sad - I’d like to think they all carry something of your care and your hope with them, even if they aren’t able to save themselves.

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Neth Williams's avatar

Though I attended way too many dances with Alcohol, I'm glad I didn't delve into some of the other party supplies I've been offered. I've watched addiction destroy the best people I've known since I was a child.

I'm sorry you have this experience, but am grateful that you can turn it into your art. I hope that you have a strong support system...even if online.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

I volunteered for outreach work, it’s something I’m passionate about.

I just get emotional when I see young ppl destroying their souls.

Thank you for the kind words, Neth.

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Neth Williams's avatar

I used to spend a lot of time volunteering at Legal Aid. I considered it my way of paying it forward that I made it out. I've also gone on to adopt to pay forward having been adopted out of foster care. Both come with a similar frustration - being stuck watching people make preventable mistakes because they just don't fully know what they're doing. It's something they leave off of the Healer/Helper brochure.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Well, look at you. A modern day social Batman 🥹🥹🙏🙏

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Neth Williams's avatar

Oh, to have those resources lol.

The closest I've come to a dual life like that was when I had to live as a closeted gay man in the US Navy during the Don't Ask Don't Tell years (I was in during 9/11 and the first month of Iraq).

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Welcome, fellow gay ⭐️✨🙋🏻‍♂️🖤

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Neth Williams's avatar

Thanks for the warm inclusion :)

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Kali Fox-Jirgl's avatar

This was painfully beautiful 🖤 Addiction does not discriminate and neither should we.

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Black Coffee Poetry's avatar

Preach, Kali!

It was a harrowing yet grounding experience. Meth/gear/ice is basically slow burn highway to hell for victims.

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Kali Fox-Jirgl's avatar

Though my addiction was alcohol (5 years sustained remission 💫), what I have come to learn is that all addictions are rooted in something deeper. Emotions we don’t want to feel, memories we don’t want to remember, and injustices done to us that we cannot let go of.

If we were a more compassionate society towards everyone regardless of personal identifiers and provided help for those roots causes of suffering, we would all be happier, healthier people.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Absolutely. The person in the story was in trouble with police from the age of ten, and grew up in a questionable home environment.

I feel like he never had a chance.

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Marie Charon's avatar

Bravo. Wonderfully done.

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Thank you so much, Marie!

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A. Njoto's avatar

TINA is such a problem everywhere! Great commentary, E!

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Edward Swafford's avatar

It's rife, and it's killing our community.

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A. Njoto's avatar

I just wish to have the courage to talk about it like you do. Maybe I will.. I still don't know! Great piece as always tho

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Edward Swafford's avatar

Talk about your own experience with it, or what you see in the community?

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A. Njoto's avatar

Just tina in general and the person I knew who used it.

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